I lie in the bed feeling sorry for myself and start to feel guilty. I could have been nicer to Ellie. I never even kissed her goodbye. Michael never kissed me goodbye either but then again, he doesn't love and he doesn't care about me.
Source: Catherine Barry: "The Twenty-Eights Day". In Irish Girls About Town, 2004, p. 45.
I would like to ask for the explanation for the usage of the word "never" in that sentence. The context is as follows: The sentece is comment of the narrator of one short story on one particular event that occured some hours in the past. Just one morning she did not kiss her child goodbye. The word "never" indicats after all the present perfect which in this case would mean that she has never kissed her child goodbye.
P. S. There could be raised an objection that this is an duplicate of a question that was resolved here: Should I always use the perfect present, when the sentence uses "never"?. But I do not think so. I understand the usage of "never" in a sentence like this: "I lived in Europe in the 90s, but the entire time I never visited Italy". I think that my sentence – given the context – tells that the narrator did not kiss her daughter goodbye just in one particular morning. And that is the reason why she feels ashamed. So this behaviour was an exception from the rule. Normally – when she does not suffer from the mental instability – she kissed her goodbye. Just exactly from this reason I am puzzled by the usage of "never" in that sentence.