In her collection of short stories, “Homesick for Another World,” a little girl is convinced that a hole will open up in the earth and take her straight to paradise, if only she murders the right person. These characters share with their creator an intense sense of alienation, which she wrote about in a faux letter to Donald Trump: “Since age five, all of life has been like a farce, an absurd performance of a reality based on meaningless drivel, or a devastating experience of trauma and fatigue, deep with meaning, which has led me into such self-seriousness that I often wonder if I am completely insane. Can you relate at all?”
The New Yorker, Ottessa Moshfegh’s Otherworldly Fiction By Ariel Levy
Can you please paraphrase the section in bold? I tried myself but I am not sure if I am correct.
Since I was a 5-year-old child the world and what was streaming in it everyday was farce (very funny ha ha for me and at the same time disturbing) and like some theater that was based on reality and since the reality itself was full of drivel the adopted theater also became like a drivel! Sometimes I doubt if I am really insane in such atmosphere? Can you even repeat what I said?
Does “relate” mean repeat here? Or means make a connection and then make a decision?