First of all, I don't know the sentence exactly so it may be one of them :
It's hardest nails for me to want not do anything about it.
It's hard as nails for me to want not do anything about it.
I think it should be "to want not to do anything". Why the second " to" is missing? Does this add something to the meaning? Or is it just contraction?
Edit:
Here's a link to the audio. Please, listen starting from 1:40
https://www.wnycstudios.org/story/death-sex-money-lets-talk-about-porn-again