This is the context:
As soon as I understood the principles, I relinquished for ever the pursuit of the mathematics; nor can I lament that I desisted, before my mind was hardened by the habit of rigid demonstration, so destructive of the finer feelings of moral evidence, which must, however, determine the actions and opinions of our lives. Edward Gibbon
I am not a native speaker and I want to translate this sentence to another language and this is an old sentence with words and style that I'm not very familiar with. so I know it's a lot to ask but can anyone write the bold part of the sentence in a more modern way? I really need it for my project. thanks in advance.